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23 February 2012 @ 05:58 pm
Three decades of cleaning up messes, drying tears, sacrificing myself to the worst of the fury to keep my sisters safe, and it's all for nothing.

They say "Let go and let God" and I say "Fuck you and let me help."

And I can't.
26 June 2011 @ 01:54 am

 I wrote a short story.

Yes, I did use a pen name.

I've only had one (published) review, and it was less than favorable.

Let's be honest, here. I don't like my own work because I never do. But I've been told that it's good.

Humor me and spend ninety-nine cents. I don't care about the money, I just want people to be reading me. 

I am a complete dork and it's 2 am. Also, I'm never here anymore.

Please leave reviews, positive or negative, as a PM instead of a comment.

Thanks in advance.

08 March 2011 @ 05:27 am
I know I haven't written here in ages.

Oh well, I'm here now.

I know some of you that read my entries are over 30. I'm looking for ideas for how to celebrate my 30th birthday. I've got three months to plan.

Suggest anything and everything you can think of.
I would use it for college and take some writing courses. I'm sick of being unpublished,  but I lack motivation and originality. Everything I write feels like it's AU Buffy. That might work for Stephenie Meyer, but it's not something I would be proud of.

I don't even care about money. I just want my name to be in print, and know that I wasn't the one that put it there, myself. I want someone to do an interview and, when asked what they're reading, mention my name.
06 December 2010 @ 03:15 pm
Disclaimer: The usual. If it's here, it's not mine, unless otherwise stated.

Author's Note: If you're here, odds are good that you can handle swearing, violence, and sexual situations, because those things happen in at least one of the shows I'm using for this fanfic.
This doesn't really have any spoilers. Or at least, I don't think it does. If someone notices something, I'll gladly edit this for warnings.

About this chapter: I'm playing with the order of things from the BtVS canon now. Instead of Mr. Platt dying in season three, I've decided he died in season two, in what would have been Go Fish. Gage is still alive, as a result.
I'm trying to think of a name for their glee club because I'm tired of writing glee club. Any ideas? I might just stick with New Directions.

"I'm never going to have to deal with this problem." Castiel mumbled. Collapse )
05 December 2010 @ 11:10 pm
Disclaimer: The usual. If it's here, it's not mine, unless otherwise stated.

Author's Note: If you're here, odds are good that you can handle swearing, violence, and sexual situations, because those things happen in at least one of the shows I'm using for this fanfic.
This doesn't really have any spoilers. Or at least, I don't think it does. If someone notices something, I'll gladly edit this for warnings.

About this chapter: This felt awkward to write. Finding a song that seems to fit a character is easy. Finding a song for that same character to sing is much harder. Add in that I had to work with the fact that Dean loves classic rock and Buffy... doesn't? Yeah. I hope this chapter doesn't suck, but I had to convince myself that Dean knows (and likes) some songs that (I think) Sam listens to.
There's also the issue of Buffy graduating in 1999, so I wasn't sure if I should try to keep away from anachronisms or not. I gave in and kept with current music because I'm still going to use classic rock (or at least older rock) for Dean to sing by himself, later on.
And since I'm on the subject, I had Buffy and Dean both knowing the lyrics to Wild Horses by The Rolling Stones because The Sundays covered it for one of the BtVS soundtracks. If anybody can think of other songs like that, please leave me a comment and tell me.

Your best bet is auto-tune and a lot of prayer.Collapse )
05 December 2010 @ 03:10 pm
Disclaimer: The usual. If it's here, it's not mine, unless otherwise stated.

Author's Note: If you're here, odds are good that you can handle swearing, violence, and sexual situations, because those things happen in at least one of the shows I'm using for this fanfic.
This doesn't really have any spoilers. Or at least, I don't think it does. If someone notices something, I'll gladly edit this for warnings.

Okay, I can't help you figure out why your girlfriend's gone Angela Chase on youCollapse )
04 December 2010 @ 06:29 pm
Disclaimer: The usual. If it's here, it's not mine, unless otherwise stated.

Author's Note: This is what happens when somebody encourages me to write crackfic and it turns into something that actually seems to make sense, at least in my head. And this is probably going to become another 'verse. This doesn't really have any spoilers for any of the three shows I'm using. Or at least, I don't think it does. If someone notices something, I'll gladly edit this for warnings.

"You got me pregnant." Cordelia said casually. Collapse )
29 November 2010 @ 04:47 am
If you could make a cameo appearance on a TV show, which show would you choose, and what type of character would you play?

If you know me, this is a duh.

If you don't? Look at my username.

Other than that, I'd like to play a character on Supernatural that doesn't need five or six minutes of screentime having crap explained to her. I've already talked with some of you about this. Just once, they need to meet someone that actually knows something about demons or ghosts, but isn't a hunter. We exist.
So basically, I want to be me, as far as that goes.
29 November 2010 @ 01:26 am
To play Buffy, anyway.

BIG NO. I don't like her, in general. To have her play Buffy would make me want to stake myself.

If I could cast anyone in this movie (assuming they're using the same characters as the original film), here's who would be on my list.

Buffy - Kristen Bell, Dianna Agron, Adrianne Palicki, Mary Elizabeth Winstead, Emma Bell, Ellen Page, Katie Cassidy, Rachel McAdams, Emma Watson

Pike - I actually can't decide on anyone for this. It's too easy to just list the guys from Supernatural. Let's move on and not do that.

Merrick - JP Manoux, Ralph Fiennes, Hugo Weaving, John Cusack... and because my DH suggested it.... Tommy Lee Jones. Or, if you like the irony? Christian Slater. Why not? It could be fun.

And since I'm probably not shutting up about this movie anytime soon, here's my DNW list.

Buffy - Megan Fox, Miley Cyrus, Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Kristen Stewart, Dakota Fanning, Reese Witherspoon, Emily Osment, Selena Gomez, Demi Lovato
Pike - Chad Michael Murray, any guy that's been a main cast member on a Disney channel show, Michael Cera (I just can't see him in this role)
Merrick - Judd Nelson, Matt Dillon, Keanu Reeves
24 November 2010 @ 10:22 pm

Kristy Swanson wants to be involved.

Maybe if she's Buffy's mom? I don't know. I'm not seeing it. But it would be interesting.


22 November 2010 @ 01:41 am
When does it stop? 
07 November 2010 @ 02:43 pm
Which one book should everyone read, and why?

The Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker.

I don't agree with everything he says (ie rock music causes teens to be violent), but there are so many people who ignore that little feeling in their stomach that tells them something isn't right.  The book tells you things to look out for and how to keep yourself out of danger.
05 November 2010 @ 09:35 pm
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25 October 2010 @ 12:22 am
I wrote a fic for Sharp_Teeth called Painted Canvas. It's a Gilmore Girls fic, and there's death of a major character.
24 October 2010 @ 04:01 pm
Do you plan to dress up this year? If so, who or what are you going to be?

Wendy from Peter Pan if my dress gets here in time. If not, I'm getting supplies from Walgreen's and JoAnn Fabrics and getting creative.
27 September 2010 @ 08:09 pm
Disclaimer: Would the owners of Adam please return to the parking lot? You forgot to park your character in the Good Storyline zone.
Title: Adam's Unbirthday
Rating: PG13 for mild swearing.
Word Count: 867 words
Summary: One year after he's used in the apocalypse, Adam's life goes on. Crossover with Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Gen.

"Open the last box." Buffy smiled and handed it to him.Collapse )
24 September 2010 @ 08:41 am
Today's Questionable Content mentions a movie about fonts, Helvetica. I ended up looking it up because it sounded interesting to me, and the whole thing is about the way that fonts have an impact on people.

And they do.

It made me laugh because when my dad's friend set up our internet connection for us, he installed ICQ on our computer and insisted that it was the best thing on the internet and "now we can talk. I added myself to your list." Because that wasn't the least bit creepy or anything.

The guy used comic sans ms for everything. He was in his fifties.

Don't get me wrong, it can be a cute font sometimes. Bold and in dark purple? No. Never.

Does anybody else have experiences like this? 
23 September 2010 @ 01:52 pm
Do you think having children is a fundamental human right? Should there should be any restrictions?

TL;DR If you like kids enough to have them, do it. If you don't, then don't. It's simple.Collapse )
21 September 2010 @ 06:19 am
No love for Hawaii Five-O yet? I expected to see at least one entry about it. I'm kind of sad that there hasn't been one.

Now I need to watch the rest of this and figure out the character names. And stop fangasming long enough to do some housework before  I watch Lone Star.
23 July 2010 @ 01:01 pm

I'm reading Changes right now, and I just finished chapter thirty-one.

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I'm a little too afraid to keep reading. I had to stop because I was crying.

I need an opinion from my f-list. What's the difference, in your opinion, between a "real" gift and something a little more... I guess the word I'm looking for is trivial? 
In the past, I've been somewhat critical of receiving gifts that were a) obviously from the clearance shelves at Walmart and b) not something I really wanted. (My mom got me gardenia scented bubble bath in 2007. I was five months' pregnant.) 
Even though I'm doing homemade gifts, I feel it would be rude to make a blanket for one relative and give another one a container of lip gloss. Lip gloss takes three minutes to make. Considering I haven't worked on either of the blankets I'm currently doing for the last couple of days, I'm going to guess that it'll be a month before I finish either of those.
I'm feeling twelve kinds of conflicted already.

22 July 2010 @ 02:33 pm
At some point in the time I've been on LJ (I think it was last year?) I said I was going to personally make Christmas gifts instead of going the storebought route.

That didn't happen.

This year, it will.

It frickin' better, anyhow, since I'm saying this in July! :)

I made a scarf on the long drive to Florida, so that's one gift done. I have no idea who I'm giving it to yet. If I use all of the ideas I found today, then I might end up keeping the scarf for myself.... I'm undecided.

Does anybody want it? It's black and has rounded edges. Sarah, maybe? My knitting has gotten much better. I promise.

Since I'm on the subject, if you want a gift from me, better say so now. I'm not sure how much I'll  be on because I've barely been on as it is, and I'm going to be really busy from now until the end of the year. We're going to find a house and buy it, and then my youngest sister is coming to live with us when her lease expires in December. And I'll have a REAL kitchen, so I'll be in there A LOT.

As far as my knitting "expertise" goes, I can do scarves, bookmarks, that kind of thing. Blankets are harder but I'm thinking about buying a knitting machine between now and September.
09 July 2010 @ 01:33 am
I know I haven't been on here much lately. My computer went haywire on me, so I've been using Joe's, and it seems kind of weird to be going to all of my usual sites on his computer.

I'm quirky, you all know this.

I'm going to Florida this weekend, but we're bringing both laptops with us, and I'm hoping mine will be fixed. We had planned on a longer visit, but we've decided that if we want to get a house, now is the perfect opportunity to meet with a realtor. I've been looking at everything within a half-mile radius of the school Linus will be attending when he's old enough, and there's a lot to choose from. I'm just so tired of this cramped space we're in. I don't know how I've lasted two years here.

I'm actually sort of looking forward to Hellcats this fall.

I just wish that some people would give up on making a Buffy movie without Joss' involvement. I heard that Vanessa Hudgens turned down a role in it. Good for her, but this means they're pulling from the Disney lot. If they cast Miley as Buffy, my worst fears will have been made official, and I've decided this means that the apocalypse is truly upon us.
Heh. I can think what I want, okay? It's being released in 2012.
13 June 2010 @ 09:07 pm
 So, I haven't updated here in the last few days. 

As most of you know by now, I was at the Waterfront Film Festival on Saturday. I went there with the intention of having a conversation with Kyle Gallner, who had been confirmed as attending on Saturday, and participating in the Q and A after Cherry was shown there. 

Kyle didn't show up. 

I'm not sure what happened, and I felt like it would be rude to ask the other participants of the Q and A where he was, so I didn't bother with that. 

I'm kind of annoyed that I paid $150 for two day passes, but the movies made up for it.
Of the five movies I had planned on watching, I only saw three. I was too hungry to really care about seeing Norman, so I went to breakfast instead. I started to fall asleep during Skateland and figured it would be best if I took a nap during the next movie scheduled, so that I would be able to sit through One Week and Cherry without falling face-first out of my seat. 

Cherry was better than I had even expected... but One Week was the best movie that I've seen in awhile. 

Last night and this morning, I felt like I'd really missed out on an opportunity when Kyle wasn't even there, like he was supposed to be. But then I got to thinking that I was just seeing it backwards.
You know who really missed out? Kyle Gallner.
Let's face it, I'm awesome. 
Now Playing: Disturbed - Stupify
10 June 2010 @ 06:07 pm
Two days to go. 


So is my sister, so at least it isn't just me. Neither of us can figure out what to wear. I mean, I know I'm going for casual and comfy here, because we'll be walking around all day and everything. But my clothes all suck. 

I need to dye my hair. 

Also, I've got about six different purses and the only one that's big enough to carry an umbrella in... it's got Tinkerbell on it. I like Tink, okay? But I'm turning 29 on Sunday. Do I really want to carry a Tinkerbell purse? 

It's not even that it's Kyle Gallner. It's that this is a person I'm hoping to have an opportunity to talk to without them thinking I'm a massive dorkosaurus. I panic like this often, which you guys probably already know (I, however, am in denial about it LOL). 

Tomorrow, I have to go get Joe's check and take it to the bank, then go shopping. We're leaving tomorrow night to go hang out with my sister, and then early on Saturday morning, I'm going to the film festival with Emily. 
08 June 2010 @ 03:22 pm
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Day 12 - An episode you’ve watched more than 5 times

Twilight. The second season finale on NCIS. Kate dove in front of a bullet that was intended for Gibbs, then gets helped up by Gibbs and Tony, just to be shot in the head by a vindictive terrorist bastard. And she was only murdered because Ari wanted to screw with Gibbs. It's made much worse by the fact that a year before, Gibbs had a nightmare that the exact same thing happened. 

Day 13 - Favorite childhood show

In chronological order, there's Jem and the Holograms, Punky Brewster, Lamb Chop's Play Along, and VR5. And if you know anything at all about VR5, you'll understand just why that's insanely funny to me now. Where the hell is my older British mentor, you guys? I feel so deprived.